Something about Gratitude...

I’ve always been a to-do-list girl. I list everything that I need to do, who I want to be, and what I need to achieve. What most people don’t know is that coupled with my obsession in listing everything, I used to believe that I know exactly who I will be at a specific time of my life.

In the perspective of the School Girl Nina, by the age of 25, she is on her way as one of the best lawyers in Manila. Having graduated in the University of the Philippines Law School and having earned the number one spot at the recent Bar exam, her success in her chosen field is inevitable. She doesn’t mind being single, believing that not all people are destined for marriage, and probably she is one of those people who are supposed to spend the rest of her life alone, and quite frankly, she doesn’t mind at all, and actually loving it.

But reality strikes and at the onset of my 25th, I was thinking what have become of me. I used to know what I want and exactly how to get it, but at that moment, I was clueless. I didn’t know where to start because I don’t know where I’m supposed to go. It was as if I went blind.

For a person, who find happiness in planning, and in getting what she wants, it was a very confusing time. I was questioning the person I had become. I was thinking that I was a failure. I am not a lawyer. I did not attend UP. I am single but no longer believe that I am destined for solitary life. I felt I was dissappointing a lot of people, most especially myself.

It was just fortunate that I was surrounded by people who have been a very good influence on me. They continuously inspire me to build new dreams, to achieve them, and never give up. Having been blessed with a family that loves me, friends that support me, and faith that uplifts me, hesitations and doubts became an option, and I choose not to be affected by them. I choose to continue being happy, building dreams, and achieving them.

On the last day of my 25th year, I realized that although I am not the person I thought I would be at this age, I could honestly say that I am happy of the person that I’ve become and it is all because of everyone that has been part of my life.

I hope that this is enough to express my gratitude. Everyone who became part of my life, inspired me to be the best that I can be. Every moments, every conversation, every experienced shared, will be treasured. I am really thankful that you allowed me to become part of your lives and that you let me show you glimpse of my true self.

Thank you.

At the onset of my “new” year, I promise to always choose to be happy, determined to make the best out of everything, continue creating opportunities, be thankful for each experience, and to continue to dream, aim, and believe.